Sixth Parental Group Meeting:

This is the last parent group meeting pre-children. It was held in the morning (second meeting at this time point), and every parent showed up for this final meeting.

The meeting opened with a psychologist talking about the post-pregnancy blues. She defined that has the mother having a lot of hormonal changes, often leading to crying, especially for the first three days, as well as having symptoms of depression.

The psychologist further stated that if the depressive symptoms lasted for 10 days or more, then the parent (either the mother or the father may have postpartum depression) should call the psychologist (who seemed to be funded through the antenatal clinics).

Her main message:

  1. Don’t be too hard on yourself
  2. Call a psychologist sooner rather than later
    • So symptoms don’t get worse
    • The parent can start receiving support.

The midwife then took over and advised us to break into groups, while eating fika, to discuss how we currently divide our time as a couple and for personal time (today) and how we plan to divide our time as an individual, a couple, and as a family once the baby arrives.



The midwife though didn’t offer any sage advice. Rather, she simply listened as each group described their time spent with the family, the relationship, and by themselves.

Our answers: Notice our alone time didn’t change, but we increased our overall family hours by 14 hours believing we’d receive 2 hours less sleep per night spent on the baby.

She then thanked us and wished everyone a Merry Christmas!

We will meet one more time in March, after everyone has their baby.

Fifth Prenatal Parent Group Meeting: Visiting the Labor & Birth Ward

At the fifth prenatal parent group meeting we were told to not come to our usual meeting place; instead, go to Uppsala’s Academic Hospital.

Everything suddenly became so real. The ultrasound brought the baby to life. Charting the growth of the uterus was exciting!

Going to the hospital where my baby will one day be born = slightly scary and exhilarating.

One couple and one expectant father did not show up to this meeting. The rest of us searched for where we were supposed to go….but luckily we had found each other 🙂

Eventually we worked our way down to a basement, and found the rest of the group. A midwife from Hjärtet met us there, introduced us to another midwife who works in the labor & birth ward, and then left us with her, while we got the grand tour.


We started by seeing the waiting room, where we were told that while expectant mothers are fed, there is no food for the expectant fathers; therefore, they are encouraged to bring their own food, label and date it, and put it in the fridge. Or they could go upstairs and buy food at the food court (if you happen to give birth during normal business hours).

Then we made our way to the bathing area. There was a large bathtub that expectant mothers are encouraged to go in while they’re in labor. There’s even enough room for the expectant father; although we’re told he should wear a bathing suit (apparently because the medical staff may walk in, and for some unknown reason, seeing a naked man, but not a naked woman, is unacceptable).


Then we made our way to a potential birthing room. It was dull and drab. The midwife pointed out that there were no curtains. And then pointed out that we should feel free to bring objects and entertainment with, since we could be there for several hours before actually giving birth.


We all sat around the rim of the room, while the midwife sat in the middle, demonstrating to us different tools that could be used, as well as different ways expectant mothers could use the room.

The size the baby will be, along with a demonstration of holding the baby, resting on the mothers’ chest, and cutting the umbilical cord.
A cord used to measure the infant’s heartbeat.
A close-up of the bit that actually measures the heart beat.
A manual vacuum extraction pump.

This was a very informative visit, and let expectant parents know what to expect, see where to go, and feel more comfortable in their soon-to-be surroundings.

Side note: Interestingly, nearly all of the expectant fathers asked various questions about the birthing process, the medical instruments the midwife described, and made joking comments, while only one expectant mother (Lisa) asked a question.

Second (cultural) side note: There was one comfy leather chair to sit on, while nearly all other chairs were hard metal (e.g. not comfortable). In typical Swedish fashion, no one took the comfy chair until the last couple came in. And then the expectant mother sat on the only remaining metal chair, giving the comfy leather chair to the expectant father….a few minutes later he got up and gave it to his partner.


Fourth Prenatal Parent Group Meeting: Tragedies of Giving Birth

At the fourth prenatal parent group meeting we discussed some of the complications and tragedies of childbirth.


Some people did not attend this meeting. While all of the previous meeting had been held in the afternoon, this was the first meeting held in the early morning. One couple came late (traveling from Uplands Väsby), one researcher couple did not attend, and an expectant father (who lives in Örebro).

All expectant parents who attended noted how tired they were.

Quick side note: The midwife always uses the term “pappa/partner” despite the fact that everyone is an expectant father, and one person will be an expectant grandma.

The meeting kicked off by having a child health nurse from the child health centers (barnvårdcentral [BVC]) come in and introduce herself, as well as discuss what the BVC is good for:

  • A place to visit while the child is 0 – 6 years old
  • Do child health check-ups (preventive work)
    • Growth and development
    • Weight and height
  • Offers parenting advice
  • Parent education classes during the infant’s first year

Then the midwife re-entered the room to start discussing the complications of pregnancy.


A rehash from the third meeting was stated–where expectant parents should stay comfortable prior to coming to the hospital via massages, baths, and doing other soothing activities (e.g. petting your pets).


When to go to the Labor & Birth Ward

We were instructed to go to the labor and birth ward not when the expectant mothers’ water breaks, but when she has had three contractions in the span of ten minutes. Each contraction, we’re told, should last for about a minute and will be intense and mildly painful (I say mildly only in comparison for what’s to come).

Prior to this, she may have a contraction every hour (or even more often), but if they are that far apart, there is no reason to rush to the hospital.

We’re told that the water breaking can be quite different for different people. Some actually have a gush of fluid come out of their vagina, letting everyone around them know they’re going into labor soon, while others have little to no liquids leaving their body.

Ways to Give Birth

There are a variety of ways to give birth–laying on your back, kneeling, standing up, in water, etc. In Sweden, we’re told by the midwife, that they encourage expectant mothers to walk around, to use their hospital room, to use a pilates ball prior to giving birth.

If expectant mothers are having pain, they can use epidurals, laughing gas, sterile hot water, acupuncture, and a few other things. Little information is given about the consequences of using any of these methods; although each method is described (e.g. how it works, how you feel if you take it).

Different methods of pain relief.


A Normal Birth

We were told by the midwife that in most cases, parents have a normal birth, meaning that they do not need to have a cesarean section, that the father will cut the umbilical cord, and that the baby will immediately start to breastfeed, while the mother is topless (skin-to-skin contact).

Immediately following birth, the baby will be placed on the mothers’ chest, and be encouraged to start breastfeeding. After one to three minutes, the umbilical cord will be cut. We’re told that this will allow all of leftover nutrients still in the umbilical cord to reach the baby.

The placenta, we’re told, should come out within the first 30 minutes. If not, a procedure will need to be done in order to remove it.

The importance of breastfeeding immediately following birth and the baby’s first meal is stressed. Apparently there are extra vitamins/nutrients in the first eating that are stored in the mothers’ breast; therefore, expectant mothers shouldn’t try to pump breast milk prior to giving birth. This process could take a while, and complications do arise with baby’s potentially not having a good sucking reflex. Of course, mothers may also experience tender nipples.

The Fathers’ Turn

Due mainly to breastfeeding, after the mother has had the infant for about an hour, the father can than start to hold the baby, with skin-to-skin contact being the preferred method.

Vacuum Extraction

Some infants require birth via vacuum extraction. This can happen in one of two ways-either they put a suction-cup on the baby’s head via the vaginal canal and then pull the baby out using the strength from their hand (and only pulling when there are contractions) or to use an electrical machine that does basically the same job as the manual vacuum extraction.

Doing this, we’re told, will not damage the infant, but will leave a red mark (bruise-like feature) on the top of the baby’s head (where the suction-cup was placed).

Acute and Super Acute Cesarean Sections

While some expectant mothers will have a planned cesarean section, others, she warned, will have either an acute cesarean section or a “super acute” cesarean section.

The main difference refers to the amount of prep time doctors, midwives, nurses, and other staff have to prepare for the cesarean section. In a typical acute situation, the midwife said that they normally have about thirty minutes to prepare pre-cesarean. Life is less chaotic for the expectant parents and for the medical staff. However, if a “super acute” cesarean needs to happen, then it means that either the infant or expectant mothers’ life is in danger and the infant needs to be removed (for lack of a better word) immediately. In this scenario, medical staff have maybe up to 15 minutes to prepare, and the expectant parents’ hospital room is typically swarmed with multiple medical personnel, which can cause not only chaos between the two expectant parents, but also added stress, frustration, and alarment. Therefore, it’s important to be aware that this scenario could happen.

After the C-section

We were then warned by the midwife that after a cesarean section, the new father would be handed the baby, and they would be left to their own devices for probably 2-4 hours, while the mother is taken to an operating room to be sown up and recover from surgery.

Only after she’s alert again, will the father, infant, and mother finally unite as one family, and breastfeeding can then commence.


Since many expectant parents can have great amounts of fear regarding giving birth, it’s great to know what your options are and what to expect. This meeting provided a lot of useful advice.

Lisa took copious notes.


Third Prenatal Parent Group Meeting: Preparations for Birth

At the third parent group meeting we discussed what would happen right before you go to the hospital to give birth.

No one was missing, except my partner.


We first went over topics we had discussed at the previous meeting (e.g. relationships), and then started jumping into preparations for giving birth.

We were all handed a book on breastfeeding (slightly weird, since we talked at length about breastfeeding during the first meeting).


The midwife checked in with all people present about their current pregnancy situation–one by one. In other words, expectant mothers were not given any extra time or questioning compared to expectant fathers.

Most expectant mothers complained about losing sleep, changing their walking habits, and looking forward to not being pregnant. While most of the guys either agreed with their partner or restated similar sentiments.

Two women complained about a pain in her side. The midwife, later in the evening brought up this ligament in her talk, and suggested that due to the baby growing, the pain from the ligament could affect every expectant mother.


Since Lisa wasn’t present, I spoke for her, saying that she was losing sleep, but that she was waking up a couple of times a night due to her acid (no solutions or suggestions were provided).

I then said that I was losing sleep and needed to support Lisa during the night with her acid. This was met with laughter from the parents, with one expectant mother exclaiming “oh, poor you.”

“No seriously,” I replied. “And I can see the lack of sleep starting to affect both of us. Now not just one person is irritable, but two people are, which can add to various relationship problems.”

People still laughed, although not as much as the first time. The midwife waited a second before moving on to the next person. Actually, in thinking about it, not only did the midwife not validate my concerns, but she failed to provide any insight to any individual or couple–she let everyone talk about their problem(s), but offered no sage advice or even thoughts.

Sage Advice

After we were all done sharing our problems and concerns (and joys) related to the pregnancy, the midwife then went over several “useful” tips for preparing for birth.

  • Take baths to relax your body
  • Have your partner give you a massage
  • Do relaxing things in your house
  • Play with your pets
  • Take a shower/bath before going to the hospital
  • Eat food before going to the hospital


We then did a basic profylax course. Profylax is a type of massage that you can give to your partner to make them feel better. There are whole courses that you can take (for a fee) that teach you how to do profylax massages so that when you give birth, your partner can massage the expectant mother to 1) make her feel more comfortable and 2) give the expectant father a role in the birthing process.

A couple practicing profylax

Side note: I heard from people who took the profylax course that the course had good information, brought the couple closer together (in that they were now both focused on the pregnancy and the importance of giving birth), but that it wasn’t necessarily worth the money. (Sadly I can’t remember how much it costs, maybe 2000 SEK? or thereabouts).

Partners’ Role

The partners’ role was quite basic–be there for the expectant mother. There was little discussed in the way that expectant fathers are important and that they have a right to be at the birth; let alone, what the experience of being there means for the father, for the couple, and for the family. Father’s (partners) were discussed, but mainly in terms of taking care of the expectant mother, and mainly via making her feel comfortable (destressing her in various ways, especially via massages).

At the end of the meeting, I approached the midwife to go over the highlights from the night (just to make sure I understood everything–after all, I knew Lisa would be asking). After going through the key material, she also handed me an extra book on having a baby (in English)…just to make sure I understood everything that was in the seminar.

Second Prenatal Parent Group Meeting: Relationships

Unli2000px-Svenska_kyrkan_vapen.svgke the first prenatal parent group meeting, not everyone showed up. Two couples did not come: expectant mom/dad who live in Uppsala and an expectant mom/grandma who live in Upplands Väsby.

This second meeting was not led by the midwife, but rather by two people from the Swedish church.

Their topic of the day: Relationships.

They talked a bit about the importance of maintaining a healthy relationship (surface level information): life is tough, having a baby complicates the relationship, make time for each other, support each other, etc.

They then kept the meeting quite interactive, either in small groups, as a large group, or with your partner.

We then broke up into groups, purposefully separated from our partners. In these groups we were to discuss what we need to have a strong loving relationship.

Expectant parents discussed typical things like supporting each other, listening to each other, discussing financial issues, and help each other feel good (see complete list [in Swedish] below).



After this, we broke for fika. During fika, several expectant parents joked and commented that we were receiving relationship advice from two members of the Swedish church. Apparently, being connected to the Swedish church, at least as far as relationships is concerned, isn’t so highly respected.


When class started back up, we played a game: To what extent do you agree with the following financial statement:

  • I charge all of my items on a credit card.
  • I just want to have new products for the baby.
  • I like to save as much money as possible.
  • I want to buy used baby products.

If you completely agreed, we were to walk to a woman and if we disagreed, we were to walk to a man (or end up somewhere in between). This would then inform us where we stood, especially relative to our partners. After talking with a few couples (and my own relationship)–no one seemed surprised about where they and their partner ended up. In other words, we all seemed to at least know the spending habits of our partners.

We then met one-on-one with our partners to discuss three things that we think will make our partner a great parent.

The night finished up with some communication tips:

  • “I statements” were emphasized
    • I feel; I need
  • Remember to take a step back before having a big discussion
  • Talk with each other when you start having feelings about something

Then just to be cheeky, I wrote”make-up sex”.

Turns out the leaders actually liked this (or it was coincidence), because then they went into a 10 minute diatribe about the importance of maintaining a healthy sex life and to talk with each other about your sexual feelings.

We then wrote down on a piece of paper things that turn us on–and we were to discuss that with our partners once we went home.

Lacking Couple Relationships within the Context of Parenting
The information covered was fine and fun, but had little to do with becoming a parent. I felt like the leaders could have tailored the meeting better to talk about relationships pre- and post-children: what to expect, and how to deal with problems while raising a child.

For example, how not to fight in front of the child, how the baby alters relationship roles, how conflicts can intensify when new parents are stressed and lacking sleep, how conversations become duller because of exhaustion from parenting, etc.

Oh well–you get what you pay for (#free).



A Discussion on Fatherhood with Swedish Child Health Professionals

Starting in 2012, a conference is organized once a semester for those child health professionals in Stockholm working in the prenatal clinics, child health centers, preschools, and social services with children (aged 0-6) and their families.

The conference was organized by Åsa Heimer and Catharina Neovius.

A large hotel where the conference was held in Rinkeby-Kista.

In March of 2015, the conference topic was on the importance of fathers. Mats Berggren from Män för Jämställdhet (Men for Gender Equality) and myself would be giving the main lectures for the day. 

Those in attendance are all Swedish-speaking (while I’m not so much), and they mainly work with non-native Swedish families (around 80% of their families are not originally from Sweden), with many of them working in the Rinkeby-Kista area (Stockholm).

I didn’t see a huge difference in how these professionals should treat fathers, based on their country of origin (except to note that some fathers would be less involved and feel like they should be less involved in childrearing compared to Swedish fathers). However, since the Swedish child health field typically doesn’t involve fathers via providing them with support (at least not to the same extent as mothers), I felt like the advice could be more general and simple:

                   Treat mothers and fathers similarly, by giving                                                    them each the individual support that they require.

So I made both an English version (not presented) and a Swedish version (presented).

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Click on the picture to see the English presentation.
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Click on the picture to see the Swedish presentation

The audience, however, was much larger than I expected. There were maybe 100+ professionals eagerly listening. In addition, they didn’t want to hear research, but rather more practical advice on how and why to interact and involve fathers–so that’s what I tried to gear my talk towards.


Having worked in Quality Assurance in Head Start for three years, you come to quickly realize that no one likes their jobs being critiqued. So I was super-glad when several audience members spoke up acknowledging the problems they face, watching professionals take notes, and having all of my printed copies of the powerpoint snatched up.

I then received a wonder gift package for presenting 🙂


My only regret was not approaching these professionals individually and in small groups afterwards to get their feedback–after all, I’m not lecturing to hear myself, but because I believe that behavior changes are important, but difficult and that we all need to work together to make the important changes that we desire.

Neurobiology of Parenting Conference (2015): Swedish Child Health Fields’ Treatment of Fathers

The Neurobiology of Parenting Conference (2015) took place in Stockholm, Sweden. The conference was organized by the Swedish Society of Medicine, but also with Acta Paediatrica (an academic journal), Sällskapet Barnavård, John Lind Stiftelsen, and Karolinska Institutet

Swedish doctor holds his cigar: A bygone time of medical astuteness that’s still amply displayed at the Swedish Society of Medicine.

There were probably 150-200 people, with researchers from around the world attending.

Great view from the windows of the Swedish Society of Medicine.
Great view from the windows of the Swedish Society of Medicine.

I have been locked into the psychological world of parenting, only minorly breaking out into public health and sociology. Therefore, learning about the neurobiology of parenting was a true gift and opened my eyes to a wealth of research that I hadn’t contemplated (or as the colloquial axiom goes: you don’t know, what you don’t know).

Naturally, a history lesson helped kick-off the conference.


It was interesting to see all of the research on skin-to-skin contact.


As well as the research on the alleged plasticity of the human brain with respect to parental caregiving. Apparently our brains can change based on the amount of caregiving we do (or at least that’s a basic way of stating intricate diagrams).



In other words, fathers can be just as caring and sensitive as mothers, but they need to take on primary parenting roles for these chemical changes to occur. This flies in the face of previous research which suggested that mothers gain their maternal instincts by virtue of being pregnant and the chemical changes that occur during gestation.


I presented less on neurobiology (since that’s certainly not my field) and more on the Swedish child health field’s attitude and (lack of) support they provide fathers.

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My poster based on my PhD dissertation.

Despite my poster not being on neurobiology, I ran into several other researchers who were interested in my research and who, themselves, conducted very similar research….so I fit right in.

The 2.5 day conference may not have been my area of expertise, but I still learned a lot, and will use a lot!

Invited Conference Presentation at SUDA: The Swedish Ploy of Promoting Equal Parenting

At the end of October 2015, I had the opportunity to present some of my research at Stockholm University Demography Unit‘s (SUDA) colloquium.

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I have neverleader5466 been invited to or involved in a colloquium like this; although now I understand what the term “conference paper” means. So I came a few weeks early to 1) see how a colloquium operates and 2) to meet a research rockstar, Dr. Linda Haas (this proved extra fruitful, because she let me discuss my research with her, as well as interview her about fatherhood in Sweden. In other words, take the opportunities to meet your research heroes–the just may turn out to be as nice and great as you’d expect).

While many research groups hold monthly seminars/presentations, a colloquium like at SUDA asks participants to share a copy of their manuscript, as well as to provide a presentation.

This involves work!

Most of the time, I create a presentation a couple of days before the actual talk. Now I need to send an entire manuscript at least one week ahead of my scheduled talk, to allow researchers time to read and critique my work.


On one hand, this is a bit daunting, because you want to write well (so as not to embarrass yourself on a given topic), while also not coming so far in the publication timeline, that comments will be unhelpful (e.g. if the manuscript has already been submitted, or worse, accepted).

So I picked a topic I had thought about, but hadn’t yet written about. Plus, this would motivate me to take time out of the summer to focus on this manuscript.

I gave a presentation entitled: The Swedish Ploy of Promoting Equal Parenting: Paradoxes in Policy Implementation Regarding Paternal Involvement in Childcare

*Clearly, I enjoy a good alliteration.

Since this is still a work in progress, I won’t upload the manuscript, but in the presentation I discussed the ways in which fathers are told via society to be good fathers, while at the same time, highlighting the various paradoxes of how organizations hold fathers back.

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Click on the picture to see the presentation.

I pay specific attention to the Swedish child health field, workplaces, and maternal gatekeeping, as well as to policy barriers, especially the Swedish parental leave act.


Unlike other seminar series that I’ve attended, I was the only speaker. So after my presentation (about 20 minutes), I then had 40 minutes of questioning from the audience.

This was fabulous, as long as I remembered to accept their comments, rather than being defensive (I always feel I have to defend my baby). Hearing the comments though was great–not because I had persuaded all of the audience (far from it), but because they gave me new directions to go down, topics to clip out, and insights to make certain arguments stronger.

I was not only impressed from the level of audience participation (especially from advice from Dr. Ann-Zofie Duvander), but of SUDA’s entire colloquium; where they are always bringing in new researchers, often from various parts of the world. This not only allows researchers to share their latest findings, but also allows those working at SUDA a chance to hear from and critique many different types of researchers.

I strongly recommend participating in and hosting your own colloquiums!

Barnhälsovårdens nationella forskningsnätverk: Presenting a Replicated Study

In the fall of 2015, the Child Health and Parenting (CHAP) Research Group organized and led their first conference for about 30 professionals in the Swedish child health research field.

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Click on the picture to see the full program.

Most of the attendees were from CHAP or CHESS, with a few extra researchers and professionals sprinkled in (e.g. Uppsala’s barnombudsman).

Topics discussed were typically informative regarding various research projects, as opposed to specific outcomes of a particular study (although these results were also sometimes presented).

The conference was one day, and included a fabulous lunch and fika. Since it consisted of a smaller gathering, the lunch and fika breaks gave ample opportunity to speak with other colleagues and (re)establish relationships.

All in all, the Barnhälsovårdens nationella forskningsnätverk first conference was a huge success, and I look forward to there being more of these conferences.

My Presentation
I presented the only English seminar on preliminary results of a replicated study regarding Child Health nurses’ attitudes of fathers’ involvement at the child health centers.

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Click on the picture to see the full presentation.

Massoudi et al. (2011) had gathered data on Child Health nurses in 2004, and in 2013, Malin Bergström gathered the same data to see the extent to which their attitudes have changed.

It turns out that the Child Health nurses are now more accepting of fathers compared to a decade earlier regarding four main points:

  1. Mothers are instinctively better at caring for infants than fathers.
  2. Fathers must learn what mothers know intuitively.
  3. Fathers are as sensitive to infants’ needs as mothers.
  4. Except breastfeeding, there are no differences between mothers’ and fathers’ ability to relate to and care for their infant.

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In addition, unlike Massoudi et al., age no longer predicts their views of fathers, suggesting that those with the most traditional views after retired or changed positions.

However, Child Health nurses are still much more likely to talk about parenthood with mothers (89%) than with fathers (30%).

So, although their attitudes have become more egalitarian regarding mothers’ and fathers’ caring abilities, they still provide significantly more support to mothers.

There are also differences regarding the amount of support Child Health nurses provide based on the socio-economic status of the neighborhood, with poorer and middle income areas providing more support to parents than wealthier areas.

Change towards equality in parenting is happening on all fronts, but within the Swedish child health field, it is slow progress.

Meeting My Research Rockstar: Foiled Again

Every new academic has people they look up to…and not just their advisors. The word “affair” maybe taking it too far, but they often reference them often, and by last name only.

Such phrases as “Schoppe’s article talks about” or “Lang’s theoretical symposium discusses…” or “Wellander’s conceptual framework is an underpinning for…”

Yes, these professors exist. To us, they’re known as rockstars!

Professor rockstars = ultimate nerdom.

For me, this is Lamb.


No, Dr. Michael Lamb from Cambridge University.


I had a chance to meet him back in 2010 at the Society for Cross Cultural Research. Alas, I was too afraid to introduce myself. I, a very outgoing guy, couldn’t build up the nerve to say hi.

Afterall, what do you really say:

Thankful: “I love your work.”                                                                                                                                      -Lame

Idolizing: “You’re my hero.”                                                                                                                                      -Overeager

Developing Researcher: “I want to be like you when I grow up.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      -Classless

Academic speak: “I read your latest paper on the transitive properties of parenthood….”                                                                                                                                                                                                            -Pompous

Relatable: “Hi, I also do ground breaking work on fatherhood.”                                                                                                                             -Arrogant
Side note: I had a chance to work at the Indianapolis 500 for four years in the pagoda–the tall building where all of the celebrities go.

Indianapolis 500 Pagoda

I took dozens of celebrities up and down the elevator making small talk. I got to talk with Michael Madsen (seemed like a really good dad). I even had to push Jesus (Jim Caviezel) for being a little disorderly. And I was left alone with Nick Lachey and Jessica Simpson (along with their bodyguard); having a fifteen minute conversation with Nick and his massive bodyguard, while Jessica freshened up for singing the national anthem.

A 15 second talk to one of my research hero’s: couldn’t do it.

I knew from the conference program that Lamb would be at SRCD in Philadelphia, so I was determined to meet him this time.

The conference was coming to a close, but I managed to make it to one of his talks (or more specifically some of his students’/coresearchers’ talks).

Lamb making his opening statements about the symposium.

How do I start a conversation with Lamb, I thought. Afterall, I didn’t want it to turn into a rehash of SCCR.

I’ll ask them a question about their research, became my conclusion.

After the presentation, I raised my hand, and asked my important question on same-sex research. I don’t remember exactly what it was, but I do remember that I mentioned that I came from Sweden and that Lamb, as opposed to the speaker, answered me.

Yes! I thought. Now I have an excuse to just say Hi. 

Mind youman-146128_960_720all I want to do is just say Hi. And these are the lengths and the numerous thoughts that are zipping through my head to accomplish my (simple) goal.

The talk ended. Questions were over. I stood up and started making my way toward a guy whose work I had religiously read while earning my master’s and PhD and now was my time to let him know that I existed.
“Hej, hur mår du? Jag kommer från Malmö, [Hi, how are you? I’m from Malmo]” said a woman who was now standing between Lamb and myself.

She was quite pleasant, and we had a great conversation. Even knowing some of the same people.

But this talk took too long. I watched Lamb leave the room. I briefly thought about sending him an email, but that never transpired.

So, another conference, another day–perhaps I’ll get a chance to say hi to one of my academic rockstars.

Anti-climatic – what new researcher can’t relate?